I saw a film tonight. It was a beautiful film. There were two beautiful women in a cast of many women. Some of the women were sad. Some were plain – but never plainly – rude.
All were amusing. All were real. All were people I easily fell in love with.
I won’t say too much more but do fiercely urge yous to go and see the film I mention.
It brought me back from the borders of depression: the depression your games do provoke in me.
And I see right now the only way forward for me right now was the only way forward for the two beautiful women in the film I saw tonight: their saving comes from their love for each other; and one day it will become myself in similar way.
In the meantime, I must soldier on in terrible solitude, as the woman who speaks does not really love me and the woman who loves me I have yet to meet.
Tough stuff, right? Tough stuff indeed.
The toughest you ever could imagine.